I don't know what it was that I wanted to say when I sat down here. There were words at the tips of my fingers just aching to get out, to be displayed so caringly in this little white box; and now that I'm here, there is nothing.
I haven't felt well in a few days and a cold has taken shelter in my head and chest. I hate being sick.
I'm sure some of it is stress related as I've been at my wits end with my nerves frayed for a while now.
There was something I had to tell Scott, that I'd been putting off for at least 6 of the years that we'd known one another, and I knew he wasn't going to be happy. That, coupled with Emma being gone for the holiday has made me feel less than whole.
I told him last night and while I no longer feel like I could vomit at any moment, it's simply brought full force to the fact that I am indeed ill with something else.
He reacted well. Better, by far, than I thought he would. His reaction brought a surge of feelings to the surface for both of us, I think.
I love this man. Madly, passionately. It's a very quiet sort of love, and that's how I know it's real. I don't need to tell him constantly that I love him. I don't have to be real physical. I don't have to be anything other than who I am, and that's a great comfort.
I need to get to bed and get some rest. I do still have a dinner date and then movies to watch with Scott, (the date is with him too. lol) so, Have a great night.
Merry Christmas Everyone.
~Meg
I got a funny feeling we missed a page or two somehow Ohh-ohhhh, Cinderella, maybe you could help us out Does the shoe fit you now
Through the years and the kids and the jobs
Hey hey, Cinderella, what's the story all about
We're older but no more the wise -- suzy bogguss -- |
Cold Christmas Eve It's like your drowning right in front me. Reaching out for something you can't see is holding so tight to you.... I don't know what it was that I wanted to say when I sat down here. There were words at the tips of my fingers just aching to get out, to be displayed so caringly in this little white box; and now that I'm here, there is nothing. I haven't felt well in a few days and a cold has taken shelter in my head and chest. I hate being sick. I'm sure some of it is stress related as I've been at my wits end with my nerves frayed for a while now. There was something I had to tell Scott, that I'd been putting off for at least 6 of the years that we'd known one another, and I knew he wasn't going to be happy. That, coupled with Emma being gone for the holiday has made me feel less than whole. I told him last night and while I no longer feel like I could vomit at any moment, it's simply brought full force to the fact that I am indeed ill with something else. He reacted well. Better, by far, than I thought he would. His reaction brought a surge of feelings to the surface for both of us, I think. I love this man. Madly, passionately. It's a very quiet sort of love, and that's how I know it's real. I don't need to tell him constantly that I love him. I don't have to be real physical. I don't have to be anything other than who I am, and that's a great comfort. I need to get to bed and get some rest. I do still have a dinner date and then movies to watch with Scott, (the date is with him too. lol) so, Have a great night. Merry Christmas Everyone. ~Meg
Brief - 2007-07-05
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