But, of all the parts and pieces, the next is the hardest. It's the hardest to put on paper, because it's filled with things that she can't yet explain, hasn't yet come to grips with, and can only hope that putting it in a tangable form will enable her to do so.

It's also the part of the story that leads to where she is now, and tells why she's there. It's the part of the story that begins to show triumph, victory and the joy of survival.

Yet to her, it doesn't read that way. To her it still seems lonely, and empty, and she doesn't know how to put that emptiness into words. If it's in verbal form, it's no longer empty. The emptyness is what she knows, it was born in her from the time she was told "no" for the first time by one of her parents.

It's routine, habit.

This is the part where she wants to scream for someone to hold her, to let her sob into their arms while she simply lets out all the emptiness so she can be filled with something better.

This is the part where she wants to get mad, yell, throw things, and then to have someone take her by the hand, gently, and tell her it's okay. They're there now, they'll take care of her.

She will survive. Incredipete - 2004-09-17 20:35:04
and what a story it is!
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Your friend by the Sea - 2004-09-17 20:39:43
Only you know the entire story and it doesn�t matter how the words read. NO one else will be able to feel the true emotion behind your written words. In a way, by writing it out, you are getting that person who will hold you while you cry and then take you by the hand and lead you towards a better future�that person is you. I admire your courage.
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Des - 2004-09-18 00:33:47
I wanted to say that my shoulder is always here for you to cry on, my arms are good at comforting and my ears listen well. [love]
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