Me, Me, Me!!!
2004-06-02 @ 12:07 p.m.

I moved to Maryland the day after I turned 18. Compared to the grassland I grew up in, it was a whole other, beautiful, world.

I lived just outside of Baltimore in Caytonsville with a Palastinian couple and their two children. It was a decent job, sweet kids.

The point of all this is to tell you about Old Ellicott City. God I loved that place. I loved the artsy feel it had. The way the people always seemed so real to me.

I never once was homesick for Texas when I lived there. Every day I'm home sick for Maryland.

It makes me wonder if maybe I didn't pass up the one chance I had to truely belong, or if maybe salvation is simply lying in wait on the east coast.

I need soulfull people. I need people who aren't afraid to be dark and mysterious. I need to be able to wear the same cute clothes I do, but be the quiet person that no one really understands, but knows something lies just beneath the surface. I want the look in my eyes to register with someone as that of a longing to just be. I want to be able to be silent, and yet understood. I want to be known as the one who always understands, who is always there.

I want, I want, I want.

Just call me Ms. Salt.