I want away from Scott. I want away from Mark, and I want away from the feelings I feel.
I want release. I need it, not so much physically, but mentally. It doesn't matter what I do, run, box, dance, sing, it doesn't relieve the tension of the mind, soul and heart.
I want to cry, I want to scream and I want to be happy and laugh.
I remember last weekend in Lubbock, I was sitting on Davids lap, laughing, hysterically.... I want that feeling, all the time. It's so wonderful. I want the feeling of watching my beautiful daughter hunting for easter eggs, inside because it was 40* and rainy yesterday. I want the feeling of looking at her this morning while she got in the car, pig tails and blue sweater, she's amazing.
I hate this uneasy feeling. I love the way I felt last night talking to Charlie. I love the way he'd laugh at my accent and told me that if I were his girl friend he'd never be mad at me because I'd just have to say "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it" with my accent and he'd melt.
I love just feeling good.
So why do I run from it? Why is it so hard for me to let go?
Why?
Why?
Why?
I promised him Italy.
I got a funny feeling we missed a page or two somehow Ohh-ohhhh, Cinderella, maybe you could help us out Does the shoe fit you now
Through the years and the kids and the jobs
Hey hey, Cinderella, what's the story all about
We're older but no more the wise -- suzy bogguss -- |
Why? I'm restless, and I want out. I want away from Scott. I want away from Mark, and I want away from the feelings I feel. I want release. I need it, not so much physically, but mentally. It doesn't matter what I do, run, box, dance, sing, it doesn't relieve the tension of the mind, soul and heart. I want to cry, I want to scream and I want to be happy and laugh. I remember last weekend in Lubbock, I was sitting on Davids lap, laughing, hysterically.... I want that feeling, all the time. It's so wonderful. I want the feeling of watching my beautiful daughter hunting for easter eggs, inside because it was 40* and rainy yesterday. I want the feeling of looking at her this morning while she got in the car, pig tails and blue sweater, she's amazing. I hate this uneasy feeling. I love the way I felt last night talking to Charlie. I love the way he'd laugh at my accent and told me that if I were his girl friend he'd never be mad at me because I'd just have to say "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it" with my accent and he'd melt. I love just feeling good. So why do I run from it? Why is it so hard for me to let go? Why? Why? Why? I promised him Italy.
Brief - 2007-07-05
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